I can open a library filled with books about grief.   Reading is not my favorite thing to do, but I chose to read a few of the books that were given to me.   One of the books that I read was Life Can be Good Again by Lisa Appelo.   In the book … More Help Needed!

I think it is very normal to always look for ways to work more efficiently.   To evaluate any activity and see if there are ways to be better.   To be somewhat critical of everything because there’s always room for improvement.   I really believed this was how everyone thought–until I married Soy. Soy … More No Regrets!

In a span of only ten days, we had returned to Alabama, made funeral arrangements, had 5 visitations, and 1 Celebration of Life ceremony.  It was a lot—physically, mentally, and emotionally. The Celebration of Life for Soy took place on a Thursday at noon.   I knew that a weekday service meant that the attendance … More Speechless!

We said our good-byes to our family.  When we finished saying good-byes, we received a notification that our flight had been delayed.  I looked at Soy and said “I can’t say good-bye again.”  Soy could detach without any emotions.  I have always been an emotional wreck at good-byes.    I can actually remember hiding in … More Deep Breath!

I sat in front of my counselor and she asked me one question—“What do you want?”   I told her that I wanted her to tell me how to walk this difficult road of grief while grieving with a nine year old, ten year old, and eleven year old.  The tender hearts of my young … More Intercession!

During the silence of the pandemic, it was very easy to feel forgotten.   It seemed as if our family and friends were living life a lot more normal than us.   We would do everything we could to serve during the day, but the nights were long and boring.    One Sunday night, our … More One Picture!

Most everyone knows how God provided the funds for the school in only one month.   I would love to tell you that there was a specific strategy to raise the funds, but we simply shared the need.    As they were telling me the totals of the money raised, I could not even comprehend … More Turn off the Faucet!

We had sold or given away almost everything that we owned.   I honestly don’t remember a lot of those final months of packing up.  I do remember taking our recliner to Goodwill and the worker rejecting it.  I did not even know that Goodwill can reject things, but apparently it was that bad.    … More The Blue Car!

Soy and I worked hard to stay out of debt.  This meant choosing to not live beyond our means.   I would love to tell you that I made my own baby food because I wanted my girls to eat only organic, but it would be a lie.   I would love to tell you … More Depleted!

Where do we go now?   If God was causing us to come to an abrupt halt then we needed some quick answers to a ton of questions.    And God was silent….   We had sought the Lord’s direction, but we heard silence.    Our schedule allowed us to spend about 8 weeks in … More Silence!